Tuesdays again.

I’ve been struggling with this all year, trying to figure out a how and where and when and I think, maybe, today, one of his favorite days (despite being a bit of a ‘for me every day is Halloween’ type) second only, maybe, to Valentine’s day, or maybe first after all, it doesn’t matter any more if I can’t remember the details.

But this year Halloween happens to be on a Tuesday, and maybe that’s the right day to try to write it out. I put on one of his favorite movies and I’m just going to try to put some words together that might stand some chance of expressing how I feel and felt.

…I can feel myself trying to shut it down already, but I’ve been doing it all year, for many years, and I need to try to not. If this place is not safe, then nowhere is.
( letsgoletsgoletgo )