Double it, double it again.

[alasanon]

it gets so loud here, when i remember

the volume of memories, rushing through
with a sound like film, clattering
a projection, projecting history, my own
slippery with the scum of the past wait
rewind
everything is clear for a moment, moire vanishing
all at once but it passes too fast, I can't
link them together
let me see! i need to understand where i was
your hands reaching for me and somehow i was
never there when i needed to be
our paths diverged, not in a wood
the trees had nothing to do with it, they grow
honestly, leaves fluttering in the stray breezes
i am standing in a meadow, the sun is too bright
nowhere near anywhere, but i can hear voices
gathering in the distance