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Last Tuesday of 2021.
12/28/21 12:18 amAnd it was covered in snow and ice. Somewhere in here there's a metaphor or a simile or some other figure of speech comparing two otherwise dissimilar things, but honestly, honestly, I'm just tired of this year, and tired of being tired.
I don't know if it's something I can actually fix, but I'm going to try.
I'm leaving my job (again, we'll see if it sticks this time, but I'm not going back while I feel like this, like I could fall over and sleep at any moment, like food is the enemy and my body is the other enemy.) and taking some time to get myself in order. Clean my room. Put up shelves. Carve out the space and time to create something instead of just selling what other people have already created.
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I made it, though. There were a few backdated entries, but none more than a couple of weeks, and certainly none time-traveling from all the way at the end of the year. My wrap-up is ... not very impressive, perhaps, but 2021 contained a lot of waiting.
My last grandparent died. I met a ...we'll call her cousin, because that's the simplest way that doesn't touch my own issues with gender... again for the first time. I resumed some minimal travel (we'll see how long that lasts, with the way things are going. we may be back in lockdown again. Fuck all knows.) I was vaccinated. I have a booster scheduled and my wisdom tooth extraction scheduled and all kinds of vague plans marked in the bin of Intentions.
We've lived here for a year, though it took us several months to really even start settling in, and in some ways, we still haven't. There's a grand total of one thing on the wall, despite the huge number of things I own that should go on walls. But most of them are in storage still.
The cat seems happier here, with plenty of space to rampage, lots of warm spots to sit on, and her own room to hide in.
Really, despite everything, it could have been much worse. For a lot of people, it was.
Anyway, things are still icy, still cold, still waiting. It's fine, my new year doesn't start until my birthday anyway, and this year Lunar New Year is that day, too.
And you know what's even better?
It's a Tuesday.
I don't know if it's something I can actually fix, but I'm going to try.
I'm leaving my job (again, we'll see if it sticks this time, but I'm not going back while I feel like this, like I could fall over and sleep at any moment, like food is the enemy and my body is the other enemy.) and taking some time to get myself in order. Clean my room. Put up shelves. Carve out the space and time to create something instead of just selling what other people have already created.
--
I made it, though. There were a few backdated entries, but none more than a couple of weeks, and certainly none time-traveling from all the way at the end of the year. My wrap-up is ... not very impressive, perhaps, but 2021 contained a lot of waiting.
My last grandparent died. I met a ...we'll call her cousin, because that's the simplest way that doesn't touch my own issues with gender... again for the first time. I resumed some minimal travel (we'll see how long that lasts, with the way things are going. we may be back in lockdown again. Fuck all knows.) I was vaccinated. I have a booster scheduled and my wisdom tooth extraction scheduled and all kinds of vague plans marked in the bin of Intentions.
We've lived here for a year, though it took us several months to really even start settling in, and in some ways, we still haven't. There's a grand total of one thing on the wall, despite the huge number of things I own that should go on walls. But most of them are in storage still.
The cat seems happier here, with plenty of space to rampage, lots of warm spots to sit on, and her own room to hide in.
Really, despite everything, it could have been much worse. For a lot of people, it was.
Anyway, things are still icy, still cold, still waiting. It's fine, my new year doesn't start until my birthday anyway, and this year Lunar New Year is that day, too.
And you know what's even better?
It's a Tuesday.
