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Deep in the throes
6/8/21 11:45 pmI have a song stuck in my head. It's not a difficult song, but I can't quite make out the words and the melody is just vague enough that I can't remember exactly how it goes.
Is it 'do de do aaa hmm de hmm' or is it "hmm hmm de do daa aaa"? I couldn't tell you. But it's not leaving me alone.
It's driving me a little crazy, honestly. It's just always there, drifting through my mind when I'm trying to concentrate on something.
It's not like I don't have other things I'd rather be thinking about; I really do! Things like my job, which has its own importance, even if no one else thinks it does. Or do they? I rarely get feedback down here, just messages through the chute. But they keep arriving, so I must be doing something right.
I wish this song would go away. It seems to somehow get louder when it's quiet here, and it almost... echoes? But it's in my head, isn't it?
The more I think about it, the more I'm not sure I actually know it. Have I ever actually heard it? Is it something I'm making up on my own? That seems unlikely, I'm not very creative and I don't know how to make up music. They all told me that when I was young, then again when I got hired here. That's part of why I'm down here. Everyone upstairs does the real work and I do what's leftover, the things no one else wants to do.
Is it 'do de do aaa hmm de hmm' or is it "hmm hmm de do daa aaa"? I couldn't tell you. But it's not leaving me alone.
It's driving me a little crazy, honestly. It's just always there, drifting through my mind when I'm trying to concentrate on something.
It's not like I don't have other things I'd rather be thinking about; I really do! Things like my job, which has its own importance, even if no one else thinks it does. Or do they? I rarely get feedback down here, just messages through the chute. But they keep arriving, so I must be doing something right.
I wish this song would go away. It seems to somehow get louder when it's quiet here, and it almost... echoes? But it's in my head, isn't it?
The more I think about it, the more I'm not sure I actually know it. Have I ever actually heard it? Is it something I'm making up on my own? That seems unlikely, I'm not very creative and I don't know how to make up music. They all told me that when I was young, then again when I got hired here. That's part of why I'm down here. Everyone upstairs does the real work and I do what's leftover, the things no one else wants to do.
