Drastically speaking.

of nothing.

Today I feel terribly unoriginal. As a result, you will have to make do with a chopped up and remixed version of something that I wrote a good long while ago. I'm very sorry, but everything else I tried to write was just another turn around repeating myself eating my own tail doing ouroboros turns in the parking lot, so I thought, "If this is what's going to come out, then I might as well do it on purpose." And there you are.
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drown me in you (five years unlovable mix)

if i could give you the world, i'd probably do it
if you only knew how i cared
if i knew how to tell you, i'd try to proclaim it
but oh! lucky you! you've been spared
the unpleasant sight of me writhing in pain
and writing ugly poems again and again
wandering for hours in the querulous rain
for i have been drowning in you

your reflection glances out of my mirror at times
and i'm caught by a trick of the light
i'm always so helpless, speaking in rhymes
but there's nothing but shadows to fight
only my futility, only my fear
no stories to listen to, nothing to hear
i can't manage say it, for you're never near
despite it, i want to be drowning in you

tell me you want me, tell me you're there
let me know that i'm not alone
don't assume i'll be startled or unprepared
but i'll be waiting again by the phone
for you to call me, for you to say,
"i thought a bit of you today,
and you can come over, you're not in the way..."
oh, please, just drown me in you