The thickness of a spider web.

that stone seat
cradling my young body
pretending to read
books of rock and glass
while the scent of
apples faded in and out
with the breeze
trying to hold on to
the metallic taste
of the water
flowing from a fountain
draped in rust,
the bottom coated
in lost autumn leaves

Prices of pieces of peace.

writing these things to you
is not the same as speaking them;
the inability to touch your
hands, to see your mouth--
our eyes do not meet, typing.
undercurrents are invisible
to key-pecking fingers
and emotions are as nothing
when I cannot feel your breath
on my face, an exhalation of
resent or fondness or love or
despair.

Vivid colours -- erasing the rainbow.

Unlearned
-Underwhelming

I'm still untaught, still untried
but I've already made up my mind
I've got a chip on my shoulder
the size of east L.A.
My neuroses, my particulars
dance on it night and day
I can't be bothered
It can't be fought
~why---(i just don't care)~

Even though (i love you)
is a simple thing to say
I won't pay up, I won't shell out
I'll warn you--stay away.

They never told me
how to keep these promises
the ones I made to you
I never learned
from my parents
how to say these words to you

You'll never be my only love
I'm not built that way--don't try.
Better than you have fought and lost
These are games I just don't play
You've got a snowball's chance in hell
of finding satisfaction
if what you want or what you need
revolves around my reactions
~why---(i just don't care)~

Even though (i need you)
is an easy thing to say
I can't give up, I won't give in
I've got my own parts to play

They never told me
how to keep these promises
fidelity on cue
I never learned
from my teachers
how to say these words to you

They can't teach me
how to keep these promises
these words just for you
but I'll learn
in my own sweet time
how to say these words to you